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Sunday, June 20, 2010
Friday, June 11, 2010
Happy Birthday Aimee
So in celebration of 2 years of Aimee, let's reminisce about the day my life changed forever.
It was June 10th 2008 (a Tuesday), just a week shy of my due date. I went to work in the morning, but left early for my doctor appointment. My OB asked if I was having any contractions yet. I told her, not really. And I don't know if I really was or not. Looking back, I did have a lot of discomfort in my lower back where it would get super tight, then relax on it's own. Perhaps I was feeling my contractions more there? Anyway, I was already dilated to a 3 (I think) and like 70% or so effaced. She offered to strip my membranes - which can help your body go into labor. Some people says that it hurts, didn't bother me one bit. Ok, maybe this is too much information, but it's part of the story, so why not?
After my appointment, I walked over to the hospital and turned in all my registration papers, patted myself on the back thinking I was so good to get this done a week early. I went home and had myself a little nap. Greg was home early that day and had gone to Costco. He bought a ton of food! "Fancy" things like brie cheese... some weird meat, lots of fruits and crackers. I remember him making a nice little plate for me. And normally I would gobble that stuff up. But for some reason food just didn't sound good to me. I remember feeling kind of ill that evening.
We went downstairs and were playing Mario Kart on the Wii. At around 6 that evening I realized I was having real contractions. They were getting longer and closer together over the next 2 hours.
I remember getting scared and crying (as pregnant women are prone to do) for a minute. I didn't even have my hospital bag packed! I told Greg, I think this is the real deal and we need to go to the hospital. He gave me a priesthood blessing before we left. It was very comforting and reassuring. Afterwards, I wasn't scared anymore - just excited. On our way out the door Greg called his mom and I called mine.
Mom was convinced I was i
n real labor because I had to stop talking during my contractions. We piled into the car and made our way! I waddled into the hospital - got all checked in and admitted around 10pm.
I was all for an epidural - which I got around midnight. The anesthesiologist was a really cool guy. He and Greg hit it off. Getting the epidural wasn't bad. The shot they give to numb the area hurt more than the big needle. It was a bit uncomfortable, but not awful. Shortly after, I was able to relax! In retrospect, I wish I had waited a little longer to get the epidural. It did slow my labor down some. But sometimes you just get it when you can get it. That night was a busy night in the hospital. Something like 12 other babies were born. If I waited, I may have missed out!
My night nurse was super nice. Her name was Emily too. Now, they tell you to get some sleep if you can - until you're ready to push. Totally didn't happen. I may have dozed here and there, but they come and check you every hour... so you really don't rest well. Around 5 in the morning my water broke. Very weird sensation... Greg had fallen asleep in the chair next to my bed, I woke him up to let the nurse know what happened. She came in and sure enough, I was "ready" to push.
This next part was no fun. No fun at all. First of all, it's really hard to push when you can't feel what you're doing. Also, I'm not so convinced I was really "ready" to. It ended up taking 2 1/2 hours. That's a fairly long time to push.
At one point, the nurse said Aimee's heart rate was dropping a little, so they gave me some oxygen. It smells/tastes awful. Also, in my birthing class, the inst ructor told us to breathe out when we push, like when you lift weights, you breathe out, right? Makes sense to me. Well, wrong - according to the nurse. She kept telling me to stop breathing out and hold my breath the entire push. At some point doing this I gagged and threw up. That was fun. All I wanted was a small sip of Sprite or something, nope - you get ice chips. Bleh!
Around 7 in the morning my OB came in. She seemed impatient with my pushing progress. I felt a bit annoyed. Don't you think I want this baby out more than you do??? Near 8 in the morning she asked, "Why don't we try the vacuum?" I told her I wanted to try just 10 minutes longer.
On June 11th, at 8:08 am, little miss Aimee Jean made her debut! She was 7 lbs 13oz and 20 1/2 inches long. (My birth weight/height exactly!)
It was the neatest thing. They let me hold her for a minute before doing all the cleaning/pat down. There she was. That was the baby in my belly for the last 9 months. I fell in love instantly. I immediately couldn't think of life without her. I remember Greg and I looking at each other for a minute, not saying anything...
It was one of the sweetest moments in my life.
Oh there's more that followed. I eventually got my Sprite. I didn't want the nurses to take her to the nursery - ever! I loved holding her. I didn't sleep much the next few weeks... this blog testifies of that!
It's hard to imagine she came into our lives 2 years ago. It feels like she's always been there. Some parts are easier now, some parts are harder. I am so grateful that she's part of our family!
I love you Aimee, happy birthday!!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Schools out for summer! (But not for me!)
While most are out of school for the summer, I'm excited to be going back! I'm taking 2 art classes this summer at UVU. It's through their continuing education program, so most of the people there are older and really weird. But that's ok!
Maybe I should preface by saying I already have a degree, a fine arts degree, actually. I haven't done much with it since graduation. Why? I have a long list of excuses. I mean, having a 2 year old definitely eats up most of my time. Plus I have a husband in school and working full time - so there isn't a lot of me time, without Aimee at my side. I'm not even going to attempt to bust out the watercolors when she's awake. That would be a disaster.
So what about the fews years in between college and having a baby? Again, I don't have a good excuse. I think I just got burnt out. There was a time when I would sit with a stack of papers in my lap and I would draw the day away. I don't know what happened to that girl. Somewhere in college it kind of left me. I remember feeling so discouraged about lacking inspiration for a project once. I went to my professor, in tears, and told him how drawing just wasn't fun for me anymore. He was very zen about the whole thing and told me that I needed reach down and find that joy again. Well 5 years later, it seems to hit me in little spurts. I start fun little projects all the time and they never really get past the planning phase. A cousin of mine had this as her facebook status a while ago:
The worst enemy to creativity is self doubt.
That's really it. It's so easy to doubt yourself and your abilities. When I got the brochure in the mail listing the classes they offered at UVU this summer, I immediately scanned the art classes. There was a digital photography class and an oil painting class. I told Greg that I might want to do them, he was all for it. "You really should do it."
But I let that brochure sit on the computer desk for a few more weeks. I almost didn't register for the oil painting class. When I finally went online to register, I became nervous about it! It was the weirdest thing. I started to make excuses, when none needed to be made. But I did it, I registered. And I'm so glad I did!
I had my first class last night. I really didn't know what to expect. Our teacher brought in a model to paint for the next 8 classes. Painting the human figure is really challenging. (Believe me, I took that class before - many an all-nighter was pulled for that class!) But I'm happy about it - it feels good to flex those art muscles again.
The photography class begins next week. The brochure says that the class is supposed to help you learn how to use your digital SLR camera. I really don't know how to use mine, so I thought this would be beneficial, even if I only ever end up taking pictures of my kids.
I'm grateful that Greg encouraged me to do this, and that he's willing to be on Aimee-duty a few nights a week now. I'm probably not going to get to do something like this for a while, at least until Greg's done with law school. I'm going to live it up and thoroughly enjoy my back-to-school summer!
Maybe I should preface by saying I already have a degree, a fine arts degree, actually. I haven't done much with it since graduation. Why? I have a long list of excuses. I mean, having a 2 year old definitely eats up most of my time. Plus I have a husband in school and working full time - so there isn't a lot of me time, without Aimee at my side. I'm not even going to attempt to bust out the watercolors when she's awake. That would be a disaster.
So what about the fews years in between college and having a baby? Again, I don't have a good excuse. I think I just got burnt out. There was a time when I would sit with a stack of papers in my lap and I would draw the day away. I don't know what happened to that girl. Somewhere in college it kind of left me. I remember feeling so discouraged about lacking inspiration for a project once. I went to my professor, in tears, and told him how drawing just wasn't fun for me anymore. He was very zen about the whole thing and told me that I needed reach down and find that joy again. Well 5 years later, it seems to hit me in little spurts. I start fun little projects all the time and they never really get past the planning phase. A cousin of mine had this as her facebook status a while ago:
The worst enemy to creativity is self doubt.
That's really it. It's so easy to doubt yourself and your abilities. When I got the brochure in the mail listing the classes they offered at UVU this summer, I immediately scanned the art classes. There was a digital photography class and an oil painting class. I told Greg that I might want to do them, he was all for it. "You really should do it."
But I let that brochure sit on the computer desk for a few more weeks. I almost didn't register for the oil painting class. When I finally went online to register, I became nervous about it! It was the weirdest thing. I started to make excuses, when none needed to be made. But I did it, I registered. And I'm so glad I did!
I had my first class last night. I really didn't know what to expect. Our teacher brought in a model to paint for the next 8 classes. Painting the human figure is really challenging. (Believe me, I took that class before - many an all-nighter was pulled for that class!) But I'm happy about it - it feels good to flex those art muscles again.
The photography class begins next week. The brochure says that the class is supposed to help you learn how to use your digital SLR camera. I really don't know how to use mine, so I thought this would be beneficial, even if I only ever end up taking pictures of my kids.
I'm grateful that Greg encouraged me to do this, and that he's willing to be on Aimee-duty a few nights a week now. I'm probably not going to get to do something like this for a while, at least until Greg's done with law school. I'm going to live it up and thoroughly enjoy my back-to-school summer!
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